New year

Only ate some fruit and biscuit whole day in office and had a cup of drink with them after finishing working at mid night, then went home with cupnoodles and two big cups of icecream...
Seems no body feels like to have supper with me tonight, crying sad.

It's relaxed recently. I was watching "Little Britain" whole day in office. It's also a crazy comic show.

I feel sort of uncomfortable that everyone says "happy new year" to me. I couldn't find any reason for me to be happy just because of the damned new year...

Sacrifice?

I'm feeling bloody depressed now... Nothing specially happened, I just felt totally stuck all of suddenly...

Toughness, Tolerance, Sacrifice. I always believe they're the three elements bonding in my life. Actually I never intended to sacrifice anything. It just makes me feel better to think in that way for whatever I lost before, but it's still killing me day by day...

Finally watched Borat's new movie. I have no specific comment except crazy shit, that I like.

------ 2:20am

Just finished the last cup of cupnoodle. I'm going to have an early sleep today...

Sad to be older

26th, yesterday, is supposed to be my birthday, but I intend to see no one particularly.

Woke up at 3pm. Went to office and spent two hours there thinking and planning what to do in next two weeks. Then went to Fu Nan IT Mall to buy some PC games, but only bought one movie: 2046, a fabulous movie I watched once before.

I didn't mention to anyone with regard to my birthday, but a few people still remembered it.....
It's always bloody sad to be older and older.

Every day has mass good foods recently. I really need more exercises...

Year by Year......

Now is raining season that rained two times this week. The first time lasts 3 days, the second time lasts 4 days.

Tonight is supposed to be Christmas night. I started sleeping in the evening after fullfilling my stomach, wondering if I could find a surprise in socks when waking up...
It's a delightful thing to sleep in such raining night with music and white blanket, since I have used to be lonely and silent.
I not feel upset or disturbed anymore.....

Unfortunately, Lao Mu's call woke me up before midnight.
I actually didn't plan to go out with anybody tonight before he rang me second time. Then I went out and played WarCraft 3 with them for the whole night, sadly...

Had a nice dinner with Gerard, Naresh and Leepeng in Scarlet Hotel's Breeze Bar. I'm still feeling sort of dizzy right now because of one glass of Champagne and two cups of Cranberry Vodka --- I'm never good at drinking

Wind's blowing like crazy tonight. I close light and open all windows.

Passed all 4 CCNP exams in 10 days, truth be told, I have no specical feeling with the success.
Things're always funny: when they're far aways, we consider they're mysterious and admirable, but when we have already approached them, we realize it's just like that, not a big deal.

I have no idea what to do every night again. Watched the whole season 2 of Prison Break by one night yesterday.
Now I totally understand why Naresh and Leepeng always like drinking so much. It's just because of boreness. Everyone's trying to find something to do to treat the dreadfully boring life...

Raining Night......

Suddenly remember a lof of things happened before, bloody depressing...

Rain is heavy outside,

Sky is crying,

Again and again............

Sunday...
Beautifully, it keeps raining for the whole day, off and on.

I seat on bed from 3pm to 10pm, listen musc, sleep, and read for the last exam of CCNP. Besides music, it's fucking boring.

Then went out with soccer shoes, ran to Lao Mu's house by 40 minutes, had a cheerful dinner with them at an authentic China restaurant. Got home at 1:30am.

Saturday...

Saw Farhan, Shida and a lot people who I didn't see for a long long time. I always like them.

It was Shida's brithday. We gathered in Scarlet Hotel, which is a small but admirable place.
Celebration, cheers, talking, ice cake, wine, vodka. I have to say it's one of the most lovely birthday parties I will remember forever.
After mid night, they went to Zouk and I left first again...

Otherwise, Gerard told me they drank a lot and got fucking lashed after my leaving on Friday's company party. The best part is, he found an unknown girl sleeping beside him when waking up next day...

Christmas Party

Just woke up, slept 15 hours, still sleepy.

Yesterday is company's Christmas party, at IndoChine beside Singapore river. I was most drunk and left early without noticing them and slept as soon as got home.

Passed those 3 CCNP exams last week.
I finished every one in its half duration and I was feeling deep shamed after the last one because they're such modular, I filled most of questions just by looking at their optional answers without thinking and understanding. It likes a testing of memory at all. Otherwise I have no way to pass in such short term.

Talked to Jiang Yu online yesterday.
He keeps asking me to go back Chengdu and will introduce girls to me.
I'm really keen to hang out with him like before but really don't know the return time due to some complicated reasons...
Actually we'd been best friends since high school, but the only common point we share is, both of us have no idea what english is after studying it in school for 10 years...

Nothing too much to do this weekend but keep reading for next week's exams. Have read through 300 papes resources and still have 100 papes for tonight.

Just had some food outside, bought some banana, dried mango, milk, and a big cup of strawberry Hagen-Daz. Hope sugar is helpful for thinking.
Also cut my hair just now, under the hands of a pretty girl, nice cutting......

A failed day

It's a failed day, failed the first CCNP exam in the morning and lost US$6000 in simulation trading at night though keep trading Bund, Bobl, Bund, Buxl, Euribor more than 6 hours everyday.

Actually I don't feel like trading too much but it's the way I'm supposed to go with and It's hard to stop once having got into the market.

I'm serious with the CCNP exam, the reason caused today's failure is because I slept too much everyday and it was a bit unlucky.
Anyhow three of four exams are coming next week which were asked by me. I was trying to push myself into madness......

Too much sleep, too many dreams

Sleep more than 10 hours everyday recently and dream a lot. I always have a lot of dreams, most of them are bizarre.

The best one is flying: I did dream several times that I could fly in sky freely like a superman, that feeling was bloody truth but no thing left when I woke up...

Yesterday I dreamed a time machine! The whole story was barpque that I couldn't remember clearly: I used that time machine to travel back to change what happened before but failled at first two times, the third time, I successed but been caged by policeman in a building, when I was thinking how to escape, I woke up.

Another good dream is all my funny classmates from primary school to university gathered in one class! Then the class became fucking crazy and hot out of imagination. I couldn't stop laughing and the dream was disturbed by my giggle...

Music is always pleasing, especially after bath on bed at deep night. I didn't Sammi's songs before, but it's nice to listen after many years.

Have to say I'm a bloody lazy guy. I'd not do anything if there has no one to kick my ass. Like tonight, I'm going to take CCNP exam next week but I totally don't feel like to study at all. Sloth will kill me sooner or later...

Nothing too much to write. Every day just sleep, eat, and work. I try to smile in front of mirror, but it's crying...