I'm not feeling such depressed for a long time, no specific reason, just feeling depressed, no one knows.
My body is tired and weak. I'm seating in office but don't want to do anything, waiting to die.
Don't know what to say, just want to have a long long sleep, if I could......

Laughing and Crying

I lost many things before, I felt crying sad, but I'm still alive because I gained a lot of things at the same time, like the trip back to Chengdu last week.

Nevertheless I'm not feeling like to describe any fucking beautiful or crazy things happened last week. They like precious treasures only belonging to the people who open it, never forget.

Besides the personal stuffs, Chengdu's development in last three years really shocked me. I could see how wealthy and flourish it has been. It has every luxurious thing Singapore has with same prices. For eating and shopping, Chengdu is definitely a much better heaven.

Sometimes I really feel badly pride and excited because of my friends, my knowledge, and my prestige, but I'm still crying sad with those lost things...

These pictures are taken by my cell phone K750 during the three day trip to Hailuo Valley:

It's supposed to be a new year again and again

It's the eve of Chinese new year, no meaning for me.
Had dinner with Gerard at 11pm then went to Mustafa at litte Indian first time to exchange some money for this morning's trip.
It's amazing that Mustafa is a such big shopping mall open 24 hours and people are so crowed inside. Actually I feel quite comfortable to walk around there even it's after midnight, even I'm alone. I have liked that messed place :)

Just remembered I forgot to write something about the Valentine Day on last Wednesday. It's totally sweet and perfect except I'm single. Woke up at 2pm, arrived office at 3pm, eta and went shopping with Yewjinn and Shaun at 5pm.

My fly back China is in this morning, pitifully only 8 days:

1th day --- arrive at 5pm, father and mother will pick me up.
2th day --- hang out with my cousins, have dinner with relations.
3th - 5th day --- go to Hai Luo Valley with a bunch of nice fuckers.
6th day --- see the classsmates of senior high school
7th day --- don't know. I really want to meet Li Yang, who has one of the most ugly face and brilliant philosophical mind in the world that influent me a lot when we were roommate in university :)
8th day --- don't know

Shopping is always good

4:39am, just took a bath after finishing sending some working emails, don't know what to say, just not feeling like to sleep even I have to wake up before noon for CME lunch today...

Bought a nice sweater yesterday, because I don't want to be frozen when arriving Chengdu next week.
Bought a pair of black leather shoes today, but I never like to wear it, it's only for special business occasion which happens once a month. My old TimberLand one wore out last week all of suddenly. I always like TimberLand's shoes since it's so conformable that I really could feel the touch of the ground.
Also bought some underwear and CD.

Ok, I should stop bullshit and go bed now... Shopping is always good

Saturday, Afternoon, Sunny

It is a super wonderful weather to go out today and I really want to go shopping but don't know which one to call, pathetic :(

I will be back!

Finally I decided to go back Chengdu for one week in Chinese new year after talking to Jiang Yu and Ye Yi online.

I haven't seen them for three years but I strongly believe they're still fucking indecent and snobbish as we were in university and that's why I like them so much that we would do all kinds of shit things together :)

Nevertheless as soon as I made my mind, a few annoying things came out for me to settle before leaving...

A lot of things happened this week. I'm still the same.

...........

Deleted all what I just wrote in halfway because of tiredness and boreness.