"The Notebook" !!!

Just finished watching "The Notebook", damned movie! It makes me ashamed in first 20 minutes and makes me nearly cry at the end. I couldn't be thinking it as a movie anyhow, it's a beautiful fable.

What's love?! Perhaps a treasure that everyone pursuing desperately, but most likely just a passional and short phase for most of common people in the real world.
It makes me confusing and sorrowful once thinking about it. I don't fucking know!

I also tell myself I would never be waiting for death or anything in the chilly resthome or hospital when the age is despairingly old - I will end it by myself before everything turns pale and gray.

9:43pm, in office, everyone has gone to LIFFE party except me, because I'm still sick and antisocial, snivel all the time.
Eating apple and listening music now, will go home soon after this, quite early tonight...

Nothing to say, sick today because of aircon, headache but no one can see from my face, always like that...
Saw my auntie who came to Singapore for business in the afternoon. I respect her a lot.

I found I was wrong yesterday when collecting VISA and watching furnitures in today's afternoon: money does make a huge sense for me because there are many nice things I want...

Will leave for Malaysia at 6am which is three and half hours later, but I just arrived home, haven't taken bath, packeted stuffs and slept, sort of fucked...

I swore to get up around 12 o'clock to go swimming from last week but never made it once, slept 10 hours everyday...

I'm still at a loss, don't know where is my next stage, just sit around in office, reading finance news and watching Eurex and LIFFE markets.

Likely I will leave for Malaysia in Friday morning with Yewjinn and other guys. However I have no idea where to go and what's going to do there, I just believe that it will be fun to have trip with them :)

Money keeps flowing out from pocket recently, don't know how and why. I'm not rich or anything, I just sometimes think I'm not buying a house or a car and I'm single thus money doesn't make too much sense right now.

Something definitely wrong

Something definitely wrong. I'm feeling quite uncomfortable because I suffered and struggled with so many pains before but now my life looks like such easy and soft all of suddenly. I realize those impulse and passion are going off from me and I'm becoming moderate and normal day by day. I really hate that, I need a breach.

Friday ---
Eat and drink at Harries Bar in the evening, which is named Company Party.
Go Kbox with Lao Mu, De Jia, Pan Zhe and Tong tong after midnight.

Saturday ---
Wash all my messed up clothes after waking up then go to Lao Mu's house. Play Warcraft with them for the whole day and whole night.

Sunday ---
Go Queensway and buy a running shoe with Yewjinn, Sherman, Wilfred then watch movie at Orchard.
"Messenger", it's a fucking horrible movie I'm always afraid to see. I had to close my eyes at the most time. Anyhow it's a boring movie.

Something is wrong!

Woke up at 2pm.
Met Yewjinn, Sherman, Caiqi, Wilfred at Bugis at 5pm then went eat and slack at Fish&Corps and Haagen-Dazs.
Had food with Gerard at Geylang after finishing work at 2:30am.
Just came home.

I keep thinking something is wrong recently because there has not too much thing to do at work and life becomes such easing...

Seems haven't written blog for some days, sort of busy in last two weeks with working, hanging out and playing Warcraft3 with friends, watching Heroes and Little Britain series, and moving house.

So my new room is totally ok. The only disappointing thing is the view in windows is not as wide as before. It's just at floor 7, shame...

4am already. Arrive home after 2am everyday since I keep working more than 10 hours from Monday to Friday otherwise it's fucking boring to stay at home alone.

Put all force on Exchange Server 2007 last three days. It's easy and happy to make it running exclusively but it's always extraordinarily troublesome when security issues are involved into Windows system especial for email server that it still have to rely on Linux system and Firewall to safely communicate with Internet.

Right place Right time

Damned woke up at 8:30am this morning, took one hour MRT and saw Shaun at Woodland, for nothing, he just asked me to go RP with him and have lunch together because we're friends. We have been good friends since we were in school.

I do think people become friends or fall in love not because they match each other perfectly in the first place, perhaps they don't match at all, but they still become friends or fall in love just because they meet and talk at a right place a right time. That's the real matter...

"You Should See The World"

Went to some clubs at Geylang and Orchard Tower Friday night with Berny, Nigel, Jeffrey. There is some interesting entertainment happening there called prostitution. According their words: "You Should See The World".
Actually there do have some attracting girls who can catch me easily outside, and I never doubt that one day I probably would fall into that kind of hobby or natrual desire...
Arrived home at 7am, just drinking and touring.