I got fucked

I got totally fucked because I booked the premier sea view room at Redang Island for one week stay with my best friends but my visa to Malaysia was rejected today just because my passport is valid less than 6 months!

For me some things are worth to do without counting the cost, this is the one.
Redang is supposed to be fucking beautiful beach and Jiang Yu and Ye Yi are my best friends since many many years ago, it's fucking fun to talk and travel with them but I'm going to miss all of them!

I made calls everywhere and tried to dig out every possible solution but no way in next two weeks at all!

I haven't felt such miserable and regretful for a very long time......

Neither happiness nor misery

Seems I only write blog under three circumstances: bored, depressive and emotional.
Now I'm bored since it's 3am but I still have no intention to sleep at all.

Unconsciously I started thinking a lot again, and I found I'm becoming desperately impassive day by day as I have no specific feeling anymore when recalling past things.
I don't know whether it's good or not, but clearly I bloody hate to be a man without sentiments waiting for death.

Stayed at home for the whole day, sleep, play PS3, read "Treasury Bond Basis", neither happiness nor misery.

爱的宿命

才看完“云水谣”，不痛只是麻木，一个人坐在窗前望着夜半没落的城市不停地思考人生活一辈子有什么意义和什么才最重要。

关于爱，我相信所有的童话故事，相信一见中情，相信坚贞和生死相许，但我也相信这一切都不属于我，我只是孤单地漂泊在这个世界上活在自己的理想和梦境当中，但是我不在乎，即使有机会再来一次我也会选择跟现在一样的生活。

在经历所有的快乐和痛苦之后，现在发现其实值得为之奋斗的目标只有一个：做自己想做的事情不用再畏惧任何人任何事。

突然想到读高中时候特别喜欢的一首诗，特别震撼：

我欲与君相知
长命无绝衰。
山无陵,
江水为竭,
冬雷阵阵夏雨雪,
天地合,
乃敢与君绝！