上个星期在网上发现现在PSP有不少好游戏而且都不要钱于是第二天就去买了台白色的搞得最近几天睡眠严重不足不过感觉很爽。

上星期在Vivo City看见一个美女突然有种被感动的感觉然后对视三秒一笑而过。我总是这样，明明想要的却从来不肯说出口，于是只好看着许多美好的东西擦肩而过总远地消失在生命当中，回忆中懊恼，我真他妈的虚伪和懦弱。

宿命的得失

我喜欢睡觉，因为常常会有些奇异的梦境，而且几乎从来不失眠，但今晚例外。

想象，生命是一棵顺着时间盘绕而上的参天大树，每个分叉都是一个选择，而人生的悲哀在于在每个分叉口只能选择一次，回不了头也永远不会知道在其它成千上万的枝干上可能发生的快乐或是悲伤，于是在抉择中彷徨，在对错中迷茫。

我总是情不自禁地去想象，想象在过去从未发生过的事情，想象在将来也不会出现的场景，一幅幅画面和一段段搞笑的对话不断在脑海中闪现，虚幻而美丽动人，让我兴奋无法入睡。

或许，这只是一个寂静的夜晚，而我，也只是在宿命的得失中寻找平衡而已。

Now I feel stuck in trading, I haven't made any money in last three months, and looks like it's always wrong no matter what I try to do recently, devastating.

For what I did before, they always can be done by hard studying and working, but it doesn't work for trading at all, seems trading always tends to break out the guideline of my knowledge, experience and statistic.

I thought I was going to be a good trader 6 months ago, but now I doubt it, I never feel such despairing that the opportunity is right in my hand but I just could not make it and all.

"The achievement without suffering is not reliable", it's what Gerard told me. I believe it and I never want to give up, but I've started figuring what I'd like to do in future other than being a trader.

Sunday Afternoon

The sunshine is wonderful today, I seat in front of the window for the whole afternoon after woke up at 2pm, watching the boats on river, watching the city under sky, and listening music quietly.
The sound of UM2 is incredible that it's hard to be described by any words, simple melody for all musics.

It sort of pissed me off yesterday that policeman blocked all the entrances to Tanjong Rhu and I had to get off taxi and walked home by near one hour at 4am!