。。。无语

钗头凤--陆游

红酥手，黄藤酒，满城春色宫墙柳。东风恶，欢情薄，一杯愁绪，几年离索。错！错！错！

春如旧，人空瘦，泪痕红悒鲛绡透。桃花落，闲池阁，山盟虽在，锦书难托。莫，莫，莫！

钗头凤--唐婉

世情薄，人情恶，雨送黄昏花易落。晓风干，泪痕残，欲笺心事，独语斜阑。难！难！难！

人成各，今非昨，病魂常似秋千索。角声寒，夜阑珊，怕人寻问，咽泪装欢。瞒，瞒，瞒！

夜半偶然读到这两首词突然觉得很无语，发现现在自己能比一般人过得自由一点并不是因为我更聪明，而是因为我能承受比一般人大得多的痛苦。放弃该放弃的，面对该面对的，没有后悔，没有退缩，享受寂寞和伤痛，嘲笑世俗和虚伪，无心欺骗也无心猜疑。

Not feel very well recently as there're many things haunting in my fucking mind, as I always lack the power of determination to make things right.

Have to say I'm an optimistic guy generally, there're a lot of funs making me laugh everyday, however when I get upset, it's extremely miserable, like this moment deep in the night.

Right now, painfully, I'm supposed to wake up 6 hours later to be the witness of my best friend's wedding but I still couldn't fall asleep, just listening music and writing blog...

Anyhow, everything is fine and boring :(

阿爆昨天晚上给我托梦了，他说大家不用担心他现在过得很好很开心，他也希望我们过得很好很开心，逢年过节不要忘了他！