It's always good to talk to great people to get different opinions and advices since individual human-been is always ignorant and blind.
Actually I got deep confusion in last a few months. I didn't realize that I was already in a golden spot for which I should treasure and fully utilize... Anyhow I have to make it right as soon as possible.

Went back Chengdu for 10 days holiday on May 1th, played around the city with my friends every day and night, fucking funny and enjoyable.
Regretfully, I left Chengdu one day before the earthquake, which is a catastrophe I really keen to experience. It's dangerous and woeful creating tremendous damage and pain, but it's also supposed to be an interesting adventure of life.

生尽欢 死无憾

可惜我不在成都，不然一定很有趣，因为他妈的地震了。

看太多的电影，读太多的小说，让我平静外表下有颗动荡不安的心，期望冒险，期望奇遇，期望不平常的事情发生，哪怕充满危险。

关于灾难，很多年前读张爱玲的<倾城之恋>，发现两个相爱的人在死亡面前紧紧相拥也是件很幸福的事情。但我注定独自流浪。

最近一直在玩仙剑4，很有感觉：

人生苦短，转瞬即逝，与其担心世事无常和害怕以后的事情，不如珍惜眼前的时光眼前的人，活着的时候要尽欢，死的时候才没有遗憾！

最后为地震中死去以及没有死去的人默哀，生老病死生死别离，生命太脆弱，现实太残酷。