Life doesn't like any fabulous moives starting with a adventurous story and ending with a happy result. It's always silent in void, endless in darkness, scenes keep emerging and repeating without stop, you even can't choose to surrender or to die --- It's a play, a infinite play going on under the bless of the damn God.
Some time ago, I pursued the enlightenment of saints and the truth of the world, but finally I realized doing those things is as silly as learning HyperMath by dog's brain.
I'm a human, the only thing I could understand is just trying to enjoy every day's mortal living. That's all.
Truth be told, I have been feeling sort of tired with the IT job though it's the only shining part of my life right now.
I will never leave IT and I also won't embrace IT to the end of the century. The world could be breathlessly boring without new adventures.
So the next is Futures Trading.
The fair becomes more and more interesting recently. I have to admit the gorgeous current situation and I always wish to do some great things.
It's not necessary conceal the natural ambition :)
However, two hell things still haunting me a lot: depression and fear.
