I am listening music now, Joy Chou's music, by my wonderful CM7. I like his songs, they always make me fall into deep quiet, looking at everything chillily.
I feel comfortable at this moment and all.
Played soccer with Yewjinn and Shaun and his friends and some Malayan at Jurong east from 11am to 1pm this noon.
The sunshine was malicious that time, burning my skin which was full of sweat. I kept running and running. Eventually, I was feeling sort of dizzy because didn't play soccer for about half a year and didn't have any food in the morning. Anyhow, I haven't been too old to keep standing up.
Went swimming with the guys who stay with me as soon as I arrived home in the afternoon.
The feeling of exhaustion isn't too bad for me.
Read a lot of stuff recently. However, the more things I read, the more suspicion and haze I have regarding the value, the objective of my life.
From scientists' general sight, there is an uniform theory directing everything in universe. It means human's behaviors are also dominated by the theory. We can call it as destiny.
From the front-end quantum theory, we even cannot exactly measure any thing in universe.
From my sight, the physical structure of Man's brain restricts us to fully understand most things in the world like gods or something else. It's despairing.
Otherwise, some fantastic fictions drive me mad recently.
I do admire that kind of legendary living, die in war, fighting for honor, ideality, and love, but it's the living only existing in the ridiculous and splendid imagination that I will never have.
Sleep a lot everyday. I heard a professional said clever guys sleep 6 hours each day and stupid guys sleep 8 hours each day. Nevertheless, I belong to none of them because I sleep 1o hours...
Probably I will go to Sydney next next week and work there for some time.
I would like to go but I indeed don't feel any delightful with it. It's bloody stressful once I think about it.
