I am extremely emotional right now and the jealousness is full of my mind, only because of the reading of the blog which belongs to the girl I like for a long long time whereas no one knows.
She is such bright, colorful and unaffected. Her blog is filled with happyness and the prime heart with her boyfriend.
Look my blog, like a dead sea scroll recording how I fall and how I perish day by day full of darkness and chaos. I feel deep ashamed and be irritated about myself, fuck.
Nothing more to write. There is no word in the world could present what the fucking feeling I have now, and everything becomes worse and worse, ruining me slowly.
Anyhow, sincerely hope she could be the most brilliant girl in the world, god bless her richly with me.
